Jun 6, 2020
Lynn Fabia sith Degree black belt in Aikido talks about how connecting with her deceased father and entities changed her life.
it took a second all right welcome to us us is all about that we're in this together the conflicts we have right now is because some people are feeling weakened they feel like they don't have the power to do what they need to do their part of the societal changes so I feel like victims and children while the congressional people and people that decide they want to be in charge it crushes them spirit wise makes them feel as if they can't really achieve anything the most important thing is that we all get stronger stronger so we can link together as members of mankind as beings of the earth in the universe in order to make it work we need to help each other get stronger help each other when they're having problems you help somebody out and they can help you in order to do that you have to be strong too and the idea is one of the reasons why we're here this is my belief anyway one of many reason we're here is to enhance ourselves and get stronger and stronger get to a point where the distractions and and threats and subconscious conflicts don't run our days I've been spending the life my life helping people get rid of baggage you know stuff like issues their mother the father sister brother gave them or the environment or whatever maybe things like that tend to ignore people off their pins and keeps them from becoming who they really are because of that because it's that way like Zig Ziglar used to say 75% of the population of the world goes to their grave with the music still in them it's not cool we all need to get stronger and we get stronger by taking away our own limitations well not long ago actually it's been a while several back that gives us 13 14 16 years something like that I a woman woman came to me she was referred by a woman in a whole other state and she comes in she's very come across very very shy very demure turns out she was you know black belt in Aikido she was a director and founder of the Society of Aikido centers she's the first you woman in the u.s. to head an Aikido organization 38 years as an instructor author of two books martial arts for life the art of intentional living and spiritual food for thought I was lucky enough to be able to help her with these and she's here today to basically tell let you know how she went go through it went through the changes and the changes it did for her life and what she does now and hopefully you'll see as you hear her talk that you can do it too so let me introduce right now name is Lin Fabia say hello yeah she's here with us and we're gonna talk about the transitions and and her transition mainly and we're gonna just go with that I hope you like it I'm sure you will here we go all right go with it like you said when I first started I was very reserved very I had a very small world didn't have much interaction the people and like anything if you don't practice interaction you lose that skill yeah and I did I stopped practicing you actually lose your confidence you lose all the tools it takes to do it even start yeah you feel so awkward and so I just kept real quiet and yeah I'm a similar to my dad who was very quiet and didn't express himself I was more like him than the others hmm but you don't want to go through life not expressing yourself right so because you need that in every area of your life if you're gonna develop yeah so I was very close to my dad and he passed away in 1992 and about 14 years 14 years later I really wanted to see if I could make a connection with him and I was going to Shreveport to teach an Aikido seminar and somebody the one of the assistant instructors told me there's somebody here that's very intuitive has a lot of integrity his name is Robert Caruso and I was interested very interested because I was like again seeking to try to connect to my dad I felt like he had something to tell me and I got your phone number and three days later in 2005 yeah I started asking you if you did that actually I was taking classes for you from you when you asked me yes and the reason I did that is because I started seeing Aikido as a metaphor for life in the sense that as you go through your life you need to learn to process things as opposed to shield or hide in any even in any street fight you can't just block and block and block something will beat the [ __ ] out of you where if you learn to process everything even if it's a word or a thought or or a derogatory attack you learn how to process it it doesn't land on your destroy you exactly yeah that's the art of Aikido yeah and this is why I liked Aikido because it's not about size and when of course when I started I was obviously it's not right 96 pounds I was 84 yeah thought how is this gonna work everybody was larger than me and they out worried me but it was they talked about you move from the center of your body because this is where the powers at but they still I looked at their size I was still looking at with physical eyes and it took a long time Mike I over analysed it I couldn't understand how this works mmm but it does work right absolutely obviously yes so I it really expanded my world going into Aikido quite a bit hmm my interaction with people and it helped but again in my personal life it was down here in Aikido I was excelling but striving for self mastery you can't do live like this you got to bring everything up to allow Jabar where you see live so that quite a lot better okay so anyway I got I did contact you and after that and I did make connection with my dad and he knew even though he was not in this world anymore he knew I was struggling and he wanted to help me because love is so powerful he felt like he couldn't express himself or help us when he was are living with us and that stayed with him even afterwards and so if there was an opportunity where he could help us he did and we were so close like right my dad and he brought in entities well he was close to you but he still didn't communicate really well because what he went through he went through them he was a prisoner board for three and a half years and it took a lot for him to go through that we didn't know he didn't talk about it but he loved us we knew that but we couldn't talk he didn't talk to us yeah so it was difficult for him right it would be considered now PTSD yes what he had yeah didn't even know it no he didn't know but he cared about us a great sure so it was good to communicate with him and so because of the love he escorted and you could say higher beings entities to help me out and they began to gradually because I was so resistant not so open they started giving me techniques to help me in my life and it paralleled with the Aikido what was beyond what I was taught in Aikido right because again in Aikido we use the center for everything everything is centered when we moved but when their what their definition of center is the mind/body/spirit connected to the god source that was different yeah the god source being in other people's lingo would be the universe center of all that is not religion wise so that made a difference right because if you're in that light then you're not gonna struggle in life right different if you're in the darkness paranoia fear which is where I was a lot of insecurity didn't know no direction didn't know didn't have a guidance that I needed right so everything was difficult yeah well that illustrates right there where you you are who you are right just like he was a strong man loving man and all these sort of things and you had this power but because of his environment and how he had to live he became a little more silent not as verbally powerful but still spiritually power or energetically powerful like in your situation somebody would look at you and not expect you to can do what you do you know and the only that's obviously changed but uh anyway it just shows that you know I think everybody has it is where they got the power but the distraction holds them back and keeps them confused or keeps them feeling weakened that's exactly what I found out later if they didn't have an argument or a fight than any feel they were in love anymore yeah and it's just a cork a cork of environment involvement but what I'm getting from you in one of when we talked before is that it was the love for him and the feeling of the strength that you got from him but you wouldn't get it verbally so it produced it and produces geez it produced a need to for discovery which is what we're talking about yeah universe set you up it does if you pay attention you start looking for avenues to change things and enhance yourself that's when you're really strong that's when you can really start to find out who you really are which is what this is all about I believe our whole existence has to do with a self image self mastery you know knowing what your power is we're not taught that so we have to learn how to get rid of the junk so we can feel it so so he had you meeting these guys I just call him guys yeah go ahead and go without disrupt you go ahead and so in the sessions every time my dad would come in and step aside and they would start guiding me didn't force me to do anything gave me techniques that I could use for to expand my life to open my mind because it wasn't anything that I knew about and it does work it was a lot of work involved yeah there's a lot of work involved you don't they don't just tell you and you say it you begin to release thoughts habits and then the changes begin to happen I remember when you came the first time I remember it you tell me it never happened but I remember thinking of you as one of those Hawaiian type or Filipino of Kusha Filipino on in the Elvis movies you know with the long braids and all that stuff you know and I remember going yeah you know what when you used to wear that braid yeah I never wore a braid yeah but my mind my subconscious picked it up in that way because they you were very demure you're very shy and even so soft-spoken I had to lean forward you know you're over it now so so you're doing the Aikido as I said a minute ago and you're have your own organization and all right yes 38 years I've been teaching 36 years and I actually took Aikido out of the dojo into the community and I wanted to expand I would write letters to colleges and the DFW Metroplex I wanted to teach it as a credit of course with the exception of one they all said no right there was that one it's Cedar Valley and I initiated as a credit of course I taught it I had a drive to reach people what and I even had I wanted to talk to women of domestic violence mm-hmm because you stood for Genesis didn't you know Genesis yes our Nexus I think yeah yeah so I went to the World Trade Center and I it wasn't easy getting in but I was so persistent I got in and I was able to talk to the women and they were so open they didn't know about energy about how to carry themselves how to walk I showed him how to walk because they didn't have any self-esteem and I really enjoyed it I did it three times and I want to come back yeah to do that again well you know you're talking about they didn't know how to walk it's interesting about that is some way the way somebody walks how they carry themselves can actually draw a predator or draw somebody that loves them more or it's how you handle yourself how do you how you how you move move through the world but they see the interesting thing is is you're very outgoing in your work but your personal life wasn't that way oh yeah the transition is important because you have to have a balance you know I even went through a time where all I was was the intuitive all I was I was a dad when my ki asked my sis my last son moved out I remember sitting on edges beggar who the hell am I now because there was no balance then when they were gone I just threw myself into this and this was all I was for a long time so there we go so it's the same kind of thing it's all about finding that balance so you you you went through a lot of changes that I remember that has changed really what I see of your personality almost black and white you know totally 360 yeah even when I was in high school I was so such an introvert so shy yeah I thought I remember she's not gonna amount to anything she doesn't even talk right so you don't know what people can change you don't know how much determination you can't really judge a person on the outside you have to really want it bad right yeah and the thing is a lot of people when they reach for that or they want to reach for that next level or the power that they know they believe they have the fear and the negative intentions or a negative attitude from other people who don't want to put the work in don't want to change they just want somebody else not to change do you see them say thanks and feel better right that's usually the kiss I can't I don't want to do nothing so let me tell you down and this is what why really created this is to show that that's really not the way to go you gotta you got to be able to be strong enough not to even hear that and it takes a little move and like when you and I started working it was like I remember thinking Lin you got all this ability man you got all this stuff you can do what are you doing let me go you didn't yeah the direction well I think it was the what I got out of it was it was you know the driver direction but it wasn't really the drive you were missing huge the confidence in the drive do you say because you knew what you could do but you didn't do it wouldn't because you were afraid it wasn't gonna work especially in your social situations yeah I was gonna get back out there so dancing came in somebody brought it up in conversation I thought oh of course I always liked dancing I was like music and that was a good way to get back into the social mmm more interaction right plus I can't always so much like dance it's exactly like it a nice fit oh you don't put nobody down you know I guess you could when I dance it happens that way trip somebody right yeah but like these books that you've got that you weren't even or you weren't a writer before then either I wasn't a creator I would say really a creator yeah I started Aikido I was a student but being stepping into the role of being a chief instructor and then after that there was another level I could be a head of an international organization and the first woman in the United States and now here's what I say when I get a young anything like that I just tell myself I'm capable of doing that and I step right up to step right up to the plate and I'll let everything else just kind of work itself but I step up to the plate I don't have any hesitation no doubt I just tell myself I'm doing this and I do it that's the difference yeah what I think what I mean obviously doing that in the Aikido did a lot for your life but it looked like to me that when it came to your personal stuff the stuff that really took you to the way you're doing it gonna mean to be an instructor and dancing what it took you there it was more personal more personal interacting people on a personal level you pretty much avoided that at first remember yeah oh my god scary so and then talk about that I mean the idea of even socializing back then went a little tough on you I wouldn't even talk to strangers I wouldn't make conversation like most people get my stuff go home and just kind of hidden behind the work yeah always saying oh I can I'm working that's what it came down to yeah I didn't know how to do that because I stayed away so long - a lot of people right and then again my dad said there's always a fork in the road it's either destruction or creation right you choose every single time and then you realize every day yes and you realize there's a power when you make choices in life and you create your life right so you start thinking about those techniques or concepts you go it you start conditioning yourself it becomes a conditioning right you can't I can't go back to the other way anymore no I don't think you can either anymore yeah yeah I remember if you don't mind the social aspect the stuff that I thought was pretty interesting was you have these abilities and you have these understanding of the movement of energy and all that sort of sort of stuff so you actually in one party life is really dynamic you know the part it was almost barely there you got him saying yes it's like one one part of your life was was a forceful voice the other one was a whisper yes and I remember going well you need to start going out you were going now you took a while to get that first one going [Music] but if you think about it you see these actresses and actors when they're on the screen and they're playing a certain character you you you tend to believe oh look at her and then when you hear him in an interview or you you see what they're in their daily life like even Elvis yeah he was a mess an interview he was not developed right dinero's the same way they just you know remember uh Dustin Hoffman I saw him on a interview and he was saying he had a shrink that he went to like three or four times a week because he couldn't survive it because there's somebody else on the screen hmm and they don't take the time to find out who they are right you just keep living this other life yeah you have to find out who you are absolutely I'm sorry and you have to stretch it you have to stretch it you know my I was telling my son a while back I was telling him that I said the place to go in your life is directly into your fear yeah that's the way to go if you always do what's comfortable you always gonna go in circles whereas if you I remember when I did my first show on 105 three in the 90s I put the headphones on and I didn't know what the hell I was doing I feel like an idiot I didn't know what it was doing I knew I needed to do it but I was I was tripping you know so you can hear my first my first my first show I'd be gone I was just jacking up a matter of fact about my first one here's the same way but it was at a nervous but then I'd work to work equipment but anyway directly into your fear your fear will take you where you need to go it's amazing you have to take it down you have to take that fear down when you do it's like lifting weights you get stronger you understanding is better and you got to your next level next level next night well fear will tell you where to go you know a lot of people a lot of people think fear is something you avoid but if you do that you never nothing ever gets better I don't still feel something right before I have to of course I felt it you know I feel it right before this but I'm not gonna back down from it right there's the difference that's the answer I still feel it my go I'm capable of doing this and each time I do it it gets stronger and stronger yeah and so that's the thing is when you do that you're actively letting go of the conflicts the mental conflicts the baggage that's been handed to you and again I believe that's why we're here and if everybody did it if everybody did if that's what we were taught in school even imagine being taught in school to face your fear to how to process through which is what you're talking about if we were taught like that we would have none of these problems all people need to know is they can absolutely construct themselves how cool is that different yeah yeah I went from being a knuckle-dragging animal violent clown to what I do now which is not violent other people right you can't give a hand up you can't give nobody a hand up if you're not up you can't so I I knew I think when I always about 15 I was in my room and I heard I heard a voice and I turned around there one but he was there in it the voice was your to help people so that kind of gave me something to strive for to head toward but I didn't know where I didn't have any guy but it was already there right so that helped in like when you came to me you wanted to connect to your dad that was your conscious thought but we the sessions really just kind of went to that but it's also it goes into the your own self develop me yeah so the the the carrot was the dad then the other was okay I can do this I can do this you know okay you can do this I don't know well do anyway that's how it went you know it even I believe it even affects your body to a degree because it tends to keep that heaviness and vibration off of ya and it allows your body not to decay so easily do you see I'm saying I mean I'm built like a gorilla but most people don't know I'm 62 years old just like you most people don't know you're what 70 now Wow see you know nobody would notice yeah and it's they always think what are you using on your skin what do you I said it's not so much what I eat or put on my skin it's what I feed my mind you know you're looking at the physical with the physical eyes I say go beyond the physical absolutely absolutely what do you think about it if you allow yourself to reside in a low vibration low energy position which would be the the you know the people on internet try to rip you apart and people try to confer give you conflict give you problems put you down if you allow yourself to live there too much without dealing with it it will drag you down cost you to cause ulcers all kinds of you know health issues every right I know a man who had leukemia and he really didn't want to die but they told him he was done he just had a few months or something like this so he started you know vitamins and running and doing all these things and he cured himself he created what do you want right and then he started messing around acting foolish again it killed him within probably a year so it's really a lot of this is about mentality and one of the reasons I wanted you on here is because you absolutely embody that belief system to believe yeah this scares me but this is where I need to go this is what I need to do because if it didn't scare me if I wasn't didn't have no interest in going I shouldn't go why would it scare me what are you freaking do it right but your subconscious is said yeah you need to go you need to do it you need to do it so you get a little afraid but you still push through I can do that I can do this I can keep right keep going and then you start realizing you know what if I face the fear I don't back down I always make it well you always make they even take a couple tries be chill always make you know it took me three years to put my first radio show on because the this market here wouldn't allow anybody metaphysical was back then you had to know somebody to know some to find somebody that did what I did and I put it on the air and I had to put it on the air on some shock-jock station because the rest of them wouldn't do it because the Bible Belt and sided up doing a show between sandwiched between women that their opening lines was orgasmic being acting or like they were having an orgasm we've called they've called this radio girls or something then a guy after me is main topic was projectile diarrhea the show did not fit but it's the only one that will let me on yeah right definitely I wouldn't be here get the distractions out of your way yeah I remember my dad going what are you doing you're going on the radio you don't know know about radio right not yet he goes most people be afraid to do what you're doing oh yeah me too me too still gonna do it with conviction saying do you have to say that I do a lot of self talk because I think it helps well yeah because the Dryad real literally by raising your vibration mmm you know just like I always tell people to have depression it's like if you wake in the morning have depression listen to music that is uplifting even if you have to listen to something very very easy and then bring it up that'll raise your vibration you visualize things you really love whatever that mean that'll raise your vibration it'll literally walk you out of depression you know your visualization your thoughts your what what you hear is all tools to bring you back where you belong do you see the other stuff is stuff that is laid on you you know so but you've went from being well socially kind of crippled yes to really getting involved him you know need stay home or do you ballroom dancing ballroom dancing and of course I knew right away I was going to be a ballroom dance instructor I knew it because that was my goal years ago I didn't do it but it stayed and then I got involved by being on the board for the USA Dallas dance chapter mm-hmm and that's what you have to do you have to get involved in whatever you're doing right it helps you didn't know he's gonna be a writer either did you [Music] there was another creation yeah I wanted to become an author and I was willing that's the key word I was willing to do whatever it took whatever work I had to do I was willing to do it yeah oh my god anybody that's ever written one and published one it's credibly pressured a lot of pressure a lot of right but you do it and then when you see it in your hands it was worth it right I have more books of course coming up on relationships right it's just it keeps expanding my world keeps expanding mm-hmm that's what happens I'm open to expansion you know when you are open to expansion it leads to growth it always leads to involvement right now the thing is as you went through this process I guess it's been what about in about 16 years right damn it Wow seem like six days not really anyway they're bound to be times where you felt stagnant or feel stuck or paralyzed you know what I'm saying when you're your life I mean that happens to me sometimes you have a your life is going pretty good and all of a sudden you feel like it's nothing makes sense yeah okay things just don't make sense or well I should do this but it doesn't I don't know if I can do that so you have to wake back up and stand up again does that make sense you be up all the time right bro yeah we live in a soup of really negative energy a lot of times a lot of times the only way around that would be to have only a circle of people that are supportive good luck yeah luck with that they told me you don't see it but things are moving 35% faster than what you know you just see what's in front of you yeah there's different peaks in life but here's you gotta keep moving right whatever is happening around you like what's happening now you got to keep moving forward it's about development yeah you don't have to do there you can't stop because something happens right no matter what Suze who says anything rolling can't stay down I tried a few times to stay down I know I went to the Amazon to be the Shapiro Indians and did ayahuasca I went there too I was thinking about research I was living in Peru or in the jungle around the jungle and then it came to me that I couldn't that I needed to keep moving forward so here we are you know the ayahuasca helped me see it but sometimes you get into you get so much nonsense in your world that you just get paralyzed so you have to kind of wake it back up sometimes a parallelization will give you some rest but then you can't live there and so you have to allow yourself to look into it look into whatever fear you might have or whatever this had to be had to overcome so like even the issue of letting go of a bad thought or a bad feeling a lot of times letting go of a bad feeling it's just as scary to people as thinking of a good one do you see them saying they're like I know I did a client with the therapist a friend and the guy had gone through all of his problems and he was doing great but when you talk to me you're still going yeah my world is tough I don't know if I'll ever everything ever be okay the world is always after me right well he got he got used to that loop and I was telling him I says well I think I said that's on the last podcast but a lot of people probably listening that didn't hear that one but I told him I says okay well you have a house right well yeah house paid for doing pretty good there yeah it was paid for I don't have prom with that okay your wife cool yeah been together since high school so she like you still yeah he was looking like what what are you talking about and I was going all right well you got money money's okay yeah job jobs great and now you could paint again cuz he's a painter yeah and for a while they wasn't able to you paint now yeah I just did one the other day and it's gonna be paid held in this the manipulable of the building or somewhere it's okay so all that stuff's working for you why sure why is your world so hard he did that he went I don't know and he was ill he's cool now you know so that's a matter of that you know back on track right switch and like like when we were when we were talking it was like there were points where where I saw you kind of go okay I just I just can't I just can't just can't then it's like okay well if you don't this is where you are if you do this will happen then I could hear you almost crack not crack but get back on then you start rolling again it's very cool very cool but it what it is it and that's again one of the reason I got me on here it shows exactly what I'm trying to the point I'm trying to make we our purpose our society our people we're not here to be subservient to some somebody we're not here to be told what we can and can't do we're not here to be told that we're not strong or we're not smart enough or that we're not capable we're here to decide when they tell that nonsense that it's [ __ ] and then it's time to stand up it's time to get stronger find their fear and tear that [ __ ] up you know go through it what's gonna happen it's not gonna eat you you know I'm saying what's the what's to lose you see them saying so so what came across like what made you want to do these books the information was so enticing so informative so knowledgeable I mean everything about it the more I thought about it and I would start talking in conversation to people wherever I was or work it would start coming out like it was in me would say you know I like the things you talk about I miss our conversations they would tell me because I can use that yeah saying that they would say something and the thing is when they said that it's because it touched something in them that they already knew not consciously they subconsciously already knew what you sand had some validity it's like when I do readings I was good as that make sense that's the only question I ask does that make sense and the reason I do that it's like okay if it makes sense what happens is they don't know they don't have to know it's true doesn't make sense to you does a sound does it resonate at all right yeah and and they say yeah we say yeah it makes sense I don't like it you know I didn't want to hear that doesn't make sense though I was getting I was actually implementing and speaking now more and I'd go out and speak or if I talk to groups it was coming out more and more I'm screaming condition now it's quite more natural and I felt very comfortable with that because I believed in it right I saw it what happened to me and this transition is attainable absolutely you have to want to improve that desire right well you mean yeah well you know that's you see the thing is what I see is a lot of people they'll no fault of their own but they'll get caught again in the think t'k in what they can't do well I can't they won't let me I hear that a lot well I'd love that but they won't that they won't let me it's always somebody somebody saying no it's always an excuse like I've had one woman one guy from he had been in jail a long time and stuff like this and he was saying well they won't let me get a job so I know it's tough sure is especially had felonies and they were his own fault but they were victimless stuff like that but not that that matters but he kept going well they wanted me to job they won't let me have a life there and he was tearing himself up by what somebody else decided for him and I said well create your own create my own create your own business but I don't know how to run a business yeah she will if you do it and it got him off the fence he's doing pretty well and also but that's the thing we get caught in that belief system because we're told so often we're told we can't do certain things you know exactly so here's an example I went to my chiropractor this was years ago and I told her I was gonna talk to a group of women of domestic violence while I was there she goes oh no somebody told me we were doing that and somebody a friend told me don't do that because something might come out of that her husband might come after you or whatever and I could hear the fear was transferred from that person to her and she was passing it on to me and I said so you're saying you stopped doing that and now you just help homeless people I said but don't you see what happened she passed her fear to you and you're passing it to me and I'm not gonna accept it right I'm still gonna talk to people because I feel like I can give them offer them something but you have to be you have to be you have to know when it's happening mm-hmm and she knew it when I said it she knew right away what happened but I just had to mention it well see it goes back to the key to think he does a good example of that where you you get your Center so we knew your Center you know where you live you know who you are you know you know metaphorically you know that and then from there you can process anything but if you left yourself come off center because somebody is with somebody sod or somebody indicated or maybe just a fear of the unknown like yourself be off-center you know you're always gonna be off-balance you're always gonna feel a little something right and you can get you know physical and mental illness that way so that's not leading you towards self-actualization either yeah I've seen people and lived in so much fear that they wound up with cancer issues different issues and a lot of the elements we have doctors don't even know where they come from you know I'm saying and I think that has to do with the vibration thing you're living in a lower vibration you should so you got this constant conflict you say our job here is to walk past that you know if you face the fear walk through it you see and the thing is this is an interesting thing too is the tendency for folks that say well I don't know how I can't do how well there's nothing wrong with talking to somebody that gives you a couple tools or it makes you feel good enough to do it you know there's nothing wrong with that you're not leaning on them they're using their you're using their strength to get your strength then you can use your strength to get somebody else in strength that's the way I was saying about the Olympic tech rings my strength can help you your strength can help me or someone else and and by doing it all together we change the whole world right yeah domino effect it used to be that would affect used to be said back in the Vietnam War as a negative oh if this happens and this is going to do it's destroyed this is destroyed and this will be destroyed does the domino effect but it happens also in the in the positive yeah ripple effect ripple effect it just keeps growing and expanding yeah yeah like I was gonna quit doing what I do one time and I put out an email okay if I won't even any extra time or whatever I'll do that but I'm done and I was getting emails from people that I didn't even read because they were talking about I did something for their mother or their their daughter isn't doing drugs anymore or whatever so the ripple effect does exist for sure you know so like the people out there listening and then all they're gonna do is when somebody's feeling back tuck them up somebody's saying I can I can let them know why why can't you that's what do you have to do to do it that's what they need to hear right if everybody that did it for each other nobody nobody would have been busting [ __ ] up at that that looting all that nonsense that guy the people around there would have knocked his ass off that guy you know but they're going we can't because he's a cop I can't help him I can't you see what I'm saying as opposed to say look you know what he's a cop doesn't matter I still got to save this guy you see him saying mm-hmm yeah yeah the belief you can't because you're told you can't that's [ __ ] comes your world yeah that's been going on for years I mean a lot of the churches and you know even before the Catholic Church even back then the powerful always controlled everybody by fear whether there's a fair of their wrath or fear the spirit wrath or spirit evil spirits and demons and blablabla you know that's how they controlled everybody then God I'm afraid and that's what screws us up as people is the fear fear is handed to us fear is developed around us we have to live in it a lot of times in our environment we still have to have the strength to step past no it's an indicator if it's a fear then it's something you have to approach you have to look at like you'd like I said you never was a writer yeah I'm sure while he's writing that book you go what am i doing why is it gonna matter exactly true I mean not only developing the book that'll help someone else but you're also helping yourself by doing it so you face your fear you'll help somebody else as you do it and at the same time Yola develop yourself and then it just goes on and on you know so I remember one time one of my biggest fears when I was doing this because as most people know I never really wanted to do this it just became Who I am is my biggest thing was [ __ ] somebody sits in front of me and I don't know what to say I almost look like a freaking idiot you know then one day it happened lady walks in the room and she sits down she says okay I said all right and I thought goddamn I'm not getting nothing [ __ ] she's staring at me she just paid her money and everything stared at me I thought Jesus so I remembered deep breathing can center you and I was at a point where I couldn't tell her I couldn't do it I mean I could've but that's not the way it works you know I'm saying my job is to help her not to cry about it or cower okay so I just thought okay to get centered yep deep breathe so I started doing that deep breathing hyperventilating really next thing I know I decided I just started everything I heard in my head I would spit out said I didn't what the hell I was talking about and I nailed her 99% her butter didn't even last said that was amazing I'm going really deep breathing how'd it work how is that it really was it you know and now you know I don't get a show cup never you know just like yourself you know you can teach somebody to do what you do you know you can you know you know you can do all these things that you never did all by facing it just by facing it yeah I just tell myself and I step into it I step into that vibration if you want to say that absolutely right into it yeah you just got to change people got you just got to change your mind really change him on which way you're gonna go you know like I was at this woman's office I was teaching doing a regression on her she had a sign I thought was pretty cool she was a PR person that was her job public relations for fortune 500 company and big companies she had a sign on her wall that says never look behind you unless that's where you're going that's good and so you know you can have your like I had an animal for her parents and I could say okay because of that I can't do this well I have I'm afraid because this happened to me well that's not good enough right so I have to say okay I did that but now I'm still standing I mean I was strong enough to overcome it that means I'm strong enough to go forward so you can use that in that that scenario the scenarios of the pain and anguish as you can either say it ask me this is part of my life this is who I am or you can say to yourself I went through that [ __ ] and I'm still standing that's pretty good so that means I don't get hold down I don't get held down didn't you know the wall in front you can either sit next to it and cry you stand on top find out where to go and that's really what it is choices always yeah exactly and there's ways to do it like I said you know what the thing is is I and I noticed this as you started doing the dancing I noticed that your whole demeanor has changed because most of time we were together doing the work it was like okay yeah I did that sure okay now did that you and now you got into the dance all of a sudden you just flourished you know and that's why like guys we were talking about being a dance instructor I'm like [ __ ] that's that'll happen I decide and you will well you're already doing it so there you go so that's pretty cool pretty cool it's good to be able to do things you have a passion for right because they say if you don't do this it's a failure that follows you through life that's what they told me isn't that true it's absolutely true yeah their life they go oh I wish I would have done what I'd wanted to do and now it's too late they're already dying yeah you it's a failure that follows you right well I was telling my son the other day I says you know at my age if there's anything I regret it isn't the failures that's happened it's what I didn't do Oh see you see I mean I would hate to go to my grave and not be able to go she had to do nothing do you see and I feel like most people feel that way if they haven't done anything you know what I'm saying it doesn't always have to be external sometimes we're here just to figure ourselves out but a lot of times you're figuring yourself out by your interaction with other people what you feel like you have to do with them you know like I have a lot of clients and I'm sure you do too or you you have to talk to you you end up talking to them about it even though it's that's not why you're there to where they're lost my train a train sucks it gets off yeah anyway just great okay we'll come back yeah so so what do you you up to now your I stay very active working on of the books relationships so I am always asking people about relationships because that's you know it's what my thing is and I'm working on a children's book and I'm when you create CDs music yeah write my own music cuz I play there so I enjoyed that so it's another see it's a constant creation its expansion well you know look at that you know it's a Aikido instructor dance instructor author speaker teacher it's a pretty good run man you know ain't done yet gives me energy right exactly it's energies like love you give it out and you come back you know make you stronger a lot of its interesting there's a lot of if you watch people than when they banner and stuff like online and stuff they're ripping on each other just ripping on each other and what they don't realize if they take about two seconds calm the hell down and actually talk to that person that they think is an adversary and say look I appreciate your opinion you have a right to it and you know that's where you are you have that right and I respect you I don't agree with it but I respect it instead it's like oh you're a racist you're no good you're not smart you know and all that does is rip you both know if you let them rip yeah I really don't but sometimes you get on my nerves but you know mostly I don't let them rip me but it rips on them too they don't need to know it where if you come at it very positive not only are you spreading a positive mentality in this positive vibration but you're also allowing yourself to be positive too that's what's a better place to live right it's quite a different world yeah yeah just like the time I was in Thailand as you know recently and the coolest thing I thought about them is they were bowing to everybody and people bow think they're gonna break in half man they bowed so much and I remember telling the girl I was with I saying damn you guys ballad everybody she said we respect respect she says I don't have to like you but I will respect you that's the teaching of the Buddha do you say and I love that I love that and it just showed me what I had been thinking how it a whole society that does it now these people don't have the government holding them up if you don't have any money you're in deep [ __ ] out there do you say they don't have that they don't have all the little trappings that it will give you what you need you know what I'm saying programs that'll save you they don't have all that if they're in trouble or they run out of money or they don't do what they're supposed to do it they start really you starts getting tough but they're always smiling I never I was there almost month at about a month and a half I was right around that I never saw nobody mad their temperament was better right but it comes down to they respected each other and that's what it comes down to because they're able to no matter how they're feeling or be able to brought back to Center by respecting each other in a sense yeah I have a lot of people that I'm sure you do too that I don't agree with I don't curb you agree how they live or what they do but it's none of my goddamn business and I have I actually enhance myself by respecting that they do something that I don't agree well do you see that interesting about that because that'll cause you health problems that's the whole thing what what level of vibration are you gonna live on are you gonna live on your vibration that is positive that makes you feel good makes you feel strong makes you feel loved makes you feel respect are you gonna live in one where you got to fight like like you know some feral cats will you be in a situation want to be mad any mad all time why would you prick that why would you prefer why would you pick that do you say and just because somebody else is mad doesn't mean it's you have to be part of that you say mister conditioning these two and they think like a lot of people living with pain or in pain or whatever it becomes a companion right like I have to have that yeah what am i without that that's the thing if we all get we all respect each other we all face the fear and no walking past it is not a way to get creamed and I think that it's a way to get stronger if we try to bring it when we feel bad we bring ourselves back up well we do that we become stronger we become formidable we become positive and a dynamic link to the collective do you say then eventually the bottom liners to people that are all about money and items and things will start needing that too because they'll see that there being that this doesn't make sense in their world so they become you see them saying they become gotta make this feel better I'm gonna do better you know right now if you have something then you're somebody that's not even the answer if you're already somebody and you're already strong you're already positive you're already respectful you had all these things then doesn't matter what [ __ ] car you have or what do you have you seems in and that's the way they live - it really makes sense that's what this cop podcast is all about is just that you raise yourself you raise your vibration you raise your your approach to life you you don't allow you so you're gonna feel bad sometimes you're gonna feel negative you're gonna feel fear but don't live there and what it'll do and you do that you act like that I'm talking to everybody now if you allow yourself to really feel when you feel sad bring yourself up when you feel scared bring yourself up know that you know nobody it happened whatever happens it ain't gonna eat you you're gonna get through it you keep doing that eventually your natural vibration where you actually live will be a more positive place and then the negative won't even look like something you could be involved in anymore and then people that talk to you will also bring that vibration up pretty soon our whole collective is where it belongs and there's nobody going to say well guys skin color it makes him bad it's stupid nobody will believe that anymore because they won't be on that lower vibration that's really what it is and what we're going through now is I'm sure you're seeing it as we're going through a type of where they say a pair shift where we're moving into the more conscious existence but we still have to break away from the negative do you see them saying and that's a way to do that it's also just because somebody talks rough doesn't mean they are doesn't mean if somebody talks rough it just means they're communicating a little rough doesn't mean they're bad you see there's all these things that needs to be seen needs to be to be fixed and that's where we hear not us as a podcast all that is it but as a casa as a world as as brothers and sisters as spirit or whatever you want to freakin call it that's why we're here to get stronger help each other to get stronger and then a ghost gone from there and that's why you're here because you're a living example of that thank you and having said that I guess I got a I got a slide off here so I'll do the music now you know all right well that's it for today next week we have Michael Harris master hypnotist they'll be talking about things that he does in his work to help people enhance themselves help people get past their blocks which is all about us it's all about us have a good day
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